Always Forward, Never Straight

30 05 2012

So yesterday, I had a little blog meltdown. I got a bunch of feedback about chilling out and not worrying so much. I guess to better explain it, I’m not so worried about the weight gain as much as I am about going off course. Some people will look at it and say, “just don’t eat garbage, it’s all in your control”. And at the end of the day, this is true. But when you have issues with food, it becomes more complicated than that. As with any addictive type behavior, when you fall off track a little, it can very quickly become a lot. Having lost significant weight in the past only to gain it all back very quickly – I know that this needs to be an everyday battle.

A friend said to me yesterday (about a different matter) – “Always Forward, Never Straight”. That sums it up pretty nicely I think. I hope the failures of my past will lead me to become smarter and more steadfast. For now, I feel like I’m getting back on track.

Pushing Forward

5 03 2012

And so begins week 11 of my journey to lose 200+ pounds. I say + because I’m not sure where exactly I’ll end up. I’m not sure what my ideal weight is anymore but I’ll know when I get there. I figure it’s about 220 but could be a bit higher or as low as 175. Anyway, that is a long ways off.

This past week, I lost two pounds bringing my total to 49+ pounds ( I say + because I’m not sure exactly how much I weighed initially). I was happy to increase the weight loss this week. I’m two ounces away from the 50 pounds lost mark. Two ounces?? I should be able to spit that out! But that’s alright. Let it come slowly. Let it be a battle. Let it be a constant challenge. This is not a diet to me. It’s a change of lifestyle. I’m in it for the long haul.

There will be times I get discouraged, times I feel defeated, times I want to give up. But right now, in this second, I feel strong. I feel the best I have in a long, long time. 2 ounces to my next goal weight…I push forward.

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