Don’t Give Up!

16 05 2012

This one is for the people who are struggling with their weight. For the people who feel broken. For those that have given up. For those that feel they are too far gone now to make a change.

Don’t give up!

I know where you are at. I was over 400 pounds at one point not so long ago. I thought it was too late for me. My friends and family had spoken with me about their concerns regarding my weight. I would “yes” them and then go binge for days. Their criticisms seemed to validate the feelings I already had about myself – that I was not good enough. That there was something wrong with me. I stopped going to most family gatherings. I further isolated myself. My shame grew exponentially.

I had tried to lose weight in the past and always failed. I always gained it all back plus some. I felt hopeless and sometimes worthless. My future looked so bleak to me.

I got to the point where my thought process was that I would die this way. It would be easier to just eat myself to death rather than lose this weight. Until I got very sick and dying became a real possibility. It’s funny how something like that will change a person. It was a blessing that came disguised as a trauma. (Doesn’t this happen frequently in life?).

Getting sick was the best thing that could have happened to me. It forced me to see what others had been trying to say to me. Of course I had known I was in very poor health but it was in getting sick that it really crystalized for me. I knew that I needed to make a change.

There is nothing special about me. My willpower is less than most people you know. I’ve failed constantly in the past. The only difference this time is that I’m willing to continue on for the long haul – one small step at a time. If it takes me 2 years or 5 to lose 200+ pounds, I’m going to do it.

I’m not telling you that you aren’t already perfect because you are. Zen Buddhist master, Thich Nhat Hanh said, “The wave does not need to die to become the water”. We are already what we seek to become. It is already inside us, we just need to find it, tap into it and bring it out.

Before losing 65 pounds, I was unable to wear a seatbelt in some cars, I could not sit in a booth when dining out, plastic lawn furniture was my nemesis, amusement park rides were often not possible, flying required seatbelt extenders.  Even just finding the energy to play with my kids or take a walk with them was so difficult.  Life was harder and I was missing out on some of the best parts of it.

So I’m not telling you there is anything wrong with you. I’m just trying to appeal to your desire to live the life you were born to live. The life you envisioned when you were younger. The life that your weight might currently prevent you from living. Inherit the life you were born to live!

How to start? Each race won starts with a single step. So take your first step now. I started by cutting out sugar. I failed initially. Even once in a blue moon I still fail but starting is the important part. Starting and picking yourself up when you fall are the most important things. As you have successes, cut out other unhealthy things while increasing exercise.

Don’t give up!

Aim for a pound. Just one pound. Show your body and your mind that you can do it. When you reach a pound go for 2,  then 5, then 10.   Mini goals are very important.  Sometime the only way a mountain can be climbed is to climb it one step at a time.

Don’t wait for your situation to become increasingly dire like I did. If you aren’t happy, make a small change today.  Begin to come up with a plan.

I’m an email or a message away if I can help in any way. If you need to talk and are willing to put forth some effort, I’m willing to spend the time.  I know you can do this, because I am doing it too.  Millions of us are.  Come join us.  Reclaim your life.

I wish you luck. But with some determination you won’t really need it. Don’t give up!

All the best,

Gettin RAW!

12 05 2012

Woke up this morning while having a dream that I could noticeably feel the difference in gut size. I was literally feeling smaller in my dream. This is how I know things are moving in the right direction lately. My body and my mind know that the weight is dropping again. It feels good to be back on track. My body and mind are telling me that I’m on my way now.

It seems like the more weight I drop, the longer the plateaus. It can be discouraging when you are in the midst of it. It’s all good though, I’m in this for the long haul. I’ve read that the more gradual the weight loss the better the chances for maintaining that loss.

Interesting day on tap today. In a few hours, I’ll be on my way to check this out:

Since I made the switch to plant based, I’ve been gaining an interest in Raw foods. It appeals to me. I’m sure at some point, I will give it a spin. It’s like the evolution of what i’m already doing. i’m not sure about how long I’ll be able to sustain it but it would definitly be good to incorporate as many raw foods into my diet as I can. This is the way our ancient ancestors ate. Our body was built to run perfectly on this stuff. I look forward to getting an education today and deepening my understanding of a Raw food diet, juicing and other health and nutrition related topics.

Later I’ll be taking my daughter to see the new Avengers movie in 3D on an IMAX screen. I’m equally looking forward to that! At nearly 37 years old, I still love my super heroes!

Enjoy your day and whatever you have planned! Even if it’s just staying put. Relaxing is important too! Sometimes I need to remind myself about the importance of relaxing. Whatever you are up to, make it a good one!

Perseverance Pays Off

10 05 2012

Over two days of being a lot more disciplined and it is paying off. Three nights of no snacking and trying to get more rest has definitely been helping as well. Two nights ago I hit the weights pretty good and did some of DDP’s patented 10 second pushups (DDP YOGA). I’m finally seeing some weight loss again. After three weeks of gain a pound, lose a pound, no movement, I was starting to feel like I was alone in the wilderness. Now the scale is moving again. Yet, I know that the hardest days are still to come.

I’ve been working through dinnertime some days and that can be rough. The cravings will start and lets face it, there aren’t very many healthy options when you are in the car and need to keep on moving. Luckily yesterday, I had a bunch of cauliflower packed and that was helpful in holding me over until I got home (where I had a most amazing walnut /sweet potato mash – recipe coming tomorrow). When 5pm rolls around fast food begins looking good to me. Despite the fact that I know a burger from Burger King will make me feel like a sloth the second I’m done with it, it still calls my name. Despite knowing that McDonald’s chicken nuggets are made with anti-foaming agent and really don’t taste all that good, I still crave them. Though I haven’t eaten either in nearly 5 months and am able to rationally talk to myself about why they are bad for me, they somehow still have their hooks in me.

My biggest weapon during these cravings lately though has been some Buddhist philosophy. “This is just a thought”, is what I say to myself. “It will pass. Let it pass. This is only temporary”. I often think of how many times before this that I’ve had the seem exact craving. I think of how I have given into this craving in the past and where it has gotten me. The satisfaction of surrendering to a craving never lasts very long. It is quickly followed by shame, guilt and diminished feelings of self. I know I can never be my best if I reopen the door to that world and begin traveling down that path again. Better to make a high quality burger at home once in a very blue moon. Last night I opted for three vegan chik’n nuggets. They tasted better than anything McDonald’s can come up with anyway. It was surely healthier.

So the journey continues and perseverance is beginning to pay off.


Wheatless + Meatless = Joyless

3 05 2012

I’m on day number 3 of going wheatless. Well almost. It turns out that I failed big time yesterday. I broke down and went to Taco Bell. This is my third time in nearly five months so I’m giving myself a pass. Plus my weight is down slightly today so that helps reduce the guilt factor. I continue to believe that occasionally the gut needs a good digestive workout. I went with the hard tacos because their shells are made of corn, right? Right, except Taco Bell’s beef is loaded with gluten as a filler. So yeah, FAIL! Their food is garbage but yet I continue to sporadically crave it. As with most fast food I eat, my body wants to just crash on a couch somewhere as soon as the meal is done. A good reminder to stay away.

One thing I’ve noticed about going wheatless, I’m more hungry. And lately I’m craving meat. I’m not sure if this is my body calling for it or if this is a correlation between the lack of wheat (fillers) taking up space in my stomach and just wanting to fill that space.

Lately it seems like there are more things that I can’t eat than I actually can eat. In a big way though, it seems more natural to eat a plant based diet and forgo the wheat. Being that wheat is so overly processed, I really should have cut it out (or at least seriously reduced it) a long time ago. Instead I have been living off of near daily wraps for lunch and an occasional big crusty bread grilled veggie sandwich or (an even more occasional) tuna sub. I also had to cut out soy after developing an allergic reaction on both hands and arms. I really enjoyed my daily bag of dry roasted edamame but it was obviously too much of a good thing. There is a lot of conflicting information about the health benefits of soy, especially for men, so it was probably wise to cut way back on it.

Wheatless and meatless… for a guy that used to live to eat, this is still a rough adjustment. I’m trying to keep in mind that for me, the reality of “living to eat” meant “eating to die”. Back to the veggies. See you tomorrow.

Life on the Road – Part II (The Itchy Journey Home)

26 04 2012

Today wrapped up my two-day marathon 800+ mile drive. I’m so done with driving this week but alas tomorrow will be several hundred more miles logged in and so will Saturday. Today was okay though, I was able to take a less frantic pace which led me to be able to eat while semi-relaxing instead of sitting behind the wheel. I started off the day the way I ended the last, with two Caribbean veggie and hummus wraps. They were so good for dinner, I decided to have the same thing for breakfast the following morning and I was not at all disappointed. For lunch I had the best meal I’ve had in days – a buddha bowl (lightly sauteed mixed veggies over brown rice and a bowl of miso soup. I loved this meal! The veggies were crunchy and the brown sauce and rice were perfect. Unfortunately over the last few weeks, I’ve began to acquire an allergy … most likely to soy. Right after eating the miso soup (miso is fermented soy beans), little red raised bumps returned to my hand. This also occurs after eating dry roasted edamame. Sometimes I can feel the bumps itching under my skin. This never used to happen, in fact I’ve never had a food allergy. How disappointing that one should develop now when I’m actually taking better care of myself and trying to eat healthy. But the reality is that some days I was eating two full bags of dry roasted edamame and it may have proven to be just too much for the body. The protein and fiber amounts contained in each package made it an attractive snack. I obviously still have a long way to go with my portion control. One day I’m going to learn what life is trying to teach me.

Andrew Weil, M.D.

19 04 2012


For nearly 15 years I have appreciated the wisdom and knowledge of Dr. Andrew Weil, an American author and physician. I like him because he is willing to incorporate alternative modalities into mainstream healthcare. He has been named one of Time Magazines top 25 most influential people in America and one of the top 100 most influential people in the world. He’s also a big man who looks a bit like Santa Claus which endears me to him quite a bit.

So it is with great interest that I follow his musings on Facebook. So do 93,000 other people. He was recently at a Health and Nutrition Conference in Boston and shared these interesting thoughts online:

“according to the CDC, half the cases of chronic disease in the US are diet-related.”

“From the morning session of the Nutrition and Health Conf. in Boston: Consumption of soybean oil (usually labeled “vegetable oil” and common in fried foods and cheap baked goods) has risen 1,000 percent over the last 100 years – a worrisome trend for American health.”

And this shocking fact:
“Running four miles daily, for seven days, burns the calories of one fast-food meal.”. Reason enough to stay away from that stuff.
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Hot Dog Stuffed Crust Pizza??

13 04 2012

No really!!!


Coming to a Pizza Hut near you very soon. Looks like I picked a good time to go plant based. The old me would have definitely been down for this.

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