Always Forward, Rarely Straight

25 09 2012

So I was living the dream, 70 pounds down, plant based diet, feeling healthier and full if energy – then vacation time came. After making the proclamation here that I would not allow vacation to derail me as it has done to so many others – it did. Day one of vacation started with pancakes, bacon and sausage and I never looked back. And a week spiraled into two months of eating a lot more of what I hadn’t been. The last time I looked at a scale I had gained back 12 pounds.

How does it happen? How do human beings that are so focused on a goal slip up like that and completely fall apart? For me, I was frustrated. I was tired of feeling like I was depriving myself and barely seeing the needle on the scale move. It was frustrating to go to my acupuncture appointments and pay hundreds of dollars and see that I lost .4 pounds that week when I knew how hard I was working to lose more. Some weeks, I was even slightly up. So despite the tremendous physical benefits I was feeling from acupuncture, I stopped going all together.

And same was the fate of this blog…checking in weekly to give the weight loss report – I’m just not wired that way. The self imposed “foot on the neck” approach does not yield lasting results for me. I need to have a more gentler setup.

In the past several weeks, I’ve felt a whole lot less full of vigor. I started to feel like how I felt a year ago right before I got sick. I’ve recently been eating an 80% raw diet of uncooked fruits,veggies and nuts in an effort to get back on track. I’ll be frank, I have no idea of what the future game plan is here. I’m just trying to figure out what works for me. Mostly plant based / mostly raw feels good but I’m just not sure if I have the strength or will to limit all food intake to that – at least for the moment.

I’m thankful to the many people who wrote me to see if all was okay or to ask what happened to the blog. It would have been interesting to blog during this two months “in the wilderness” but I just didn’t have it in me. I needed to hit the reset button and clear my mind. I feel like I’m in a better space now.

So for those still checking in, thanks so much. Here we go again…always forward, rarely straight….





We Are The Masters of Our Fate

12 04 2012

Last night I watched the PBS documentary “Being Elmo” about puppeteer Kevin Clash and his lifelong dream to work for Jim Henson. While I admit that I like nearly every other Muppet on the face of planet more than I like Elmo, the movie was absolutely riveting. Because It isn’t about puppeteering as much as it is about one man’s dream and what he does to see it become a reality. It’s about all the sacrifices that are made along the way so that the dream can come to fruition. This is what I found so interesting about this movie: it’s one man’s single focused approach of going against the odds to do what he feels he is destined to do. I so admire that sort of drive in people. I can relate to it but I cannot claim to possess it. I’m much too scattered in many different projects. But when I see someone so intently focused on one single goal, it truly amazes me.

This movie could have been about growing an award winning sized pumpkin or winning a spelling bee or a chess championship. It could have been about anything because the common thread in all of those stories is that there are seemingly average people in the world who do absolutely amazing things. This is a result of them having the innate ability to dream a big dream while awake and then take steps to make sure it comes true. I’m a big believer in everything being possible with enough effort. I believe in wanting something bad enough to not let failure deter you. The people who are not afraid to dream and then are steadfast in the steps they take to see it through do eventually obtain their dreams. The biggest limits to obtaining our dreams are ourselves. People willing to sacrifice sleep, social lives and other comforts in order to not miss out when opportunity comes knocking are ultimately the people who most often succeed.

What have you been dreaming about? What’s holding you back? You can begin taking steps today to make your dream a reality. You can do it but you have to want it. You have to want it more than anything you’ve ever wanted. You have to be willing to sacrifice for it. You have to be willing to take some lumps. You have to be willing to fall down and pick yourself up and try again – sometimes over and over until you get it right.

The world is our oyster. We are the masters of our own fates. Our dreams, our realities, our futures – they are in our hands. Everyday we get closer or farther from them. The choice is ultimately ours.








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